It's winter in my heart.

I feel like my whole life I have been waiting for the future and dwelling on the past. I have wasted my time doing this when I could be growing in who I am in Christ.

I have been listening to "Enter the Worship Circle" lately and it takes me back to the times of going and cleaning the art factory. I was assigned (chose to, actually) clean the dance room. Getting me excited about going there rarely happened but once I was there it was such a beautiful haven of praising God and reveling in his majesty. Reflecting on what He had done and showed me in that specific week and searching my heart and making it right towards Him. It was ALWAYS a time to dance and be silly and love on God and let Him love on me.

I miss those days.

Little understanding, roller-coaster faith. Which I suppose isn't quite faith at all.